It’s a holiday today. No one in my current daily life knows that it is a holiday. My children are too young, and never once got to celebrate it properly, anyway. Even still. I miss it, but I have to let it go. How do you let go of something inside of you?
It’s like a tumor inside of me. I want to change. I want to change immediately, and have this huge cancerous past surgically removed.
So I don’t tear up on holidays that are invisible to everyone but me. So I don’t sicken my future with malignant cells.